VERSE YOU CALLED YESTERDAY TO BASICALLY SAY THAT YOU CARE FOR ME BUT THAT YOURE JUST NOT IN LOVE IMMEDIATELY I PRETENDED TO FEEL SIMILARLY AND LED YOU TO BELIEVE I WAS OK TO JUST WALK AWAY FROM THE THING THATS UNYIELDING AND SCARED TO ME CHORUS WELL I GUESS IM TRYING TO BE NONCHALANT ABOUT IT AND IM GOING THE EXTREMES TO PROVE IM FINE WITHOUT YOU BUT IN REALITY IM SLOWLY LOOSING MY MY MIND UNDERNEATH THE GUISE OF A SMILE GRADUALLY IM DYING INSIDE FRIENDS ASK ME HOW I FEEL AND I LIE CONVINCINGLY CAUSE I DONT WANT TO REVEAL THAT FACT THAT IM SUFFERING SO I WEAR MY DISGUISE TIL I GO HOME AT NIGHT AND TURN DOWN ALL THE LIGHTS AND THEN BREAK DOWN AND CRY VERSE SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN SOMEBODY YOURE DEVOTED TO SUDDENLY JUST STOPS LOVING YOU AND IT SEEMS THEY HAVENT GOT A CLUE OF THE PAIN THAT REJECTION IS PUTTING YOU THROUGH DO YOU CLING TO YOUR PRIDE AND SING I WILL SURVIVE DO YOU LASH OUT AND SAY HOW DARE YOU LEAVE THIS WAY DO YOU HOLD ON IN VAIN AS THEY JUST SLIP AWAY CHORUS WELL I GUESS IM TRYING TO BE NONCHALAN