DEAR MATTHEW I LIKE YOU A LOT I REALIZE YOURE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE RIGHT NOW AND I RESPECT THAT I WOULD LIKE YOU TO KNOW THAT IF YOURE EVER SINGLE IN THE FUTURE AND WANT TO COME VISIT ME IN CALIFORNIA I WOULD BE OPEN TO SPENDING TIME WITH YOU AND FINDING OUT HOW OLD YOU WERE WHEN YOU WROTE YOUR FIRST SONG DEAR JONATHAN I LIKED YOU TOO MUCH I USED TO BE ATTRACTED TO BOYS WHO WOULD LIE TO ME AND THINK SOLELY ABOUT THEMSELVES AND YOU WERE PLENTY SELFDESTRUCTIVE FOR MY TASTE AT THE TIME I USED TO SAY THE MORE TRAGIC THE BETTER THE TRUTH IS WHENEVER I THINK OF THE EARLY S YOU FACE COMES UP WITH A VENGEANCE LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY DEAR TERRANCE I LOVE YOU MUCHLY YOUVE BEEN NOTHING BUT OPEN HEARTED AND EMOTIONALLY AVAILABLE AND SUPPORTIVE AND NURTURING AND CONSUMMATELY THERE FOR ME I KEPT DRAWING YOU IN AND PUSHING YOU AWAY I REMEMBER HOW BEAUTIFUL IT WAS TO FALL ASLEEP ON YOUR COUCH AND CRY IN FRONT OF YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME YOU WERE THE BEST PLATFORM FROM WHICH TO JUMP BEYOND MYSELF WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME